Soul Seizure
- Marie
- Mar 1
- 2 min read
It was one evening two years ago, when my obsessive-compulsive symptoms, which had lasted for about twenty years, began to show signs of improvement.
While I was sitting in my room, suddenly, I felt as if my soul were about to leave my body and fly off into the universe.
This may be a rough expression, but I cannot find any other words to describe it.
Until then, having fought constantly against fear and my own brain, I never had the moment to be aware of my soul.
But at that moment, I had no choice but to recognize that what was about to leave my physical body was my soul.
It was the first time in my life that I had experienced what could be called a soul seizure, so I became confused and frightened.
I was afraid that my soul would leave my body and that I would die, and I desperately thought about my son and my attachments to this world.
I did not have a clear sense of time, but it may have lasted about thirty minutes, and it gradually subsided.
At that time, I had no interest in spirituality at all, and my daily life left me no room to be aware of my soul, let alone the universe.
Yet, in that moment, I clearly felt the existence of the universe.
And then, I understood—not logically, but through direct experience—that “I am the universe, and I exist within all things.”
However, because it was so sudden, my mind could not immediately understand the meaning of it.
Looking back now, my soul had known this all along; it was simply the time for me to remember.
Later, I searched for the meaning of “I am the universe.”
I found an astonishing number of references to the word “oneness,” and I realized that this experience was not unique to me.
After that, my spirituality gradually deepened, and without any external information, I came to understand that “all things are born from unconditional love, and unconditional love exists within all things.”
These realizations, like bolts from the blue, led me to start a blog.
The theme of the blog was “filling the universe with love,” but I did not fully grasp its meaning myself and stopped writing.
Shortly after that, however, a galactic being taught me my mission on Earth.
So, I closed that first blog, and now, here I am, writing this.
With gratitude,
Marie