Mass of Fear
- Marie
- Mar 12
- 2 min read
One evening, a few months ago, in the middle of a simple dinner with my son, I was suddenly engulfed by fear for no apparent reason.
Normally, something frightening happens first, and then fear follows.
But this time, nothing frightening had occurred at all, and yet an overwhelming fear enveloped me.
At the same time, I experienced heart palpitations like a panic attack, and for a moment I felt as though I might need to call an ambulance.
However, I calmly observed myself experiencing this fear.
Then, the energy of my fear emerged from the hollow at the nape of my neck, moved in front of me, and something began to appear.
It was something I had never seen before—an eerie, bubbling, foam-like mass that piled up from below and gradually took shape.
As it was nearly complete, I realized that it was my own brain.
There was a brain and a brainstem, just like the illustrations I had seen in encyclopedias as a child.
I understood that my fear energy had been released.
Then, I took hold of that unnecessary fear energy—shaped like an actual brain—with both hands and released it back to the Source of the universe.
The whole experience took only about ten minutes.
At last, my son came back into view, and he gave a small chuckle.
After calming down, I finished my dinner, took a shower, and while drying my hair, I was filled with another strange sensation.
This time, it was a very gentle feeling.
At that moment, I understood—not through my mind, but through direct knowing—that I owned nothing at all.
Not my son, not my physical body, not even my own emotions.
Moreover, I understood that there was nothing to lose, and I felt a true freedom that I had never experienced in my life.
It was a completely different dimension of freedom from the kind you feel when relaxing on vacation.
In that immense freedom, I felt a very slight sense of loneliness.
This is not something unique to me.
What limits our freedom is fear, and if you just let go of fear, true freedom is there—and that freedom is the very essence of your soul.
With gratitude,
Marie